I am immunocompromised: Please Consider Me This has been a really difficult and scary year for me. And for so many of my friends and fellow disabled community members. We have heard over and over that our lives don’t matter. And now that there is a vaccine - the world wants to leave us behind. We may be slightly more protected once vaccinated However, we cannot let our collective guards down I cannot suddenly say ‘yes’ to all these magic gatherings that people are planning Not until there’s herd immunity And even then, kidney disease does not have good Covid outcomes And I am so angry I feel scared I am constantly remembering the fact that Eugenics actually began in America - the United States The fact that Alexander Graham Bell wanted to eradicate the Deaf community In the 1800s my people were systematically deprived of their language And that is something that continues to TODAY So excuse me if I am angry If this year has made me so incredibly scared That my partner has been carefully working from home all year That they have done all the medication runs - which we couldn’t get delivered And I have pretty much stayed inside And I persist in wearing a mask outside even now Because I cannot trust anyone I have so many friends Who have personal experience with devastating illness And should know better If you could reduce your risk of dying - as a well person - why wouldn’t you Why must you deny the many many years of research (Which my best friend does so I know how long it has gone on and how serious it is) Why must you tell me that my life and the lives of others at high risk Do NOT matter to you? And the worst part is I already felt like my worth was nonexistent I already struggled with suicidal ideation I already believed that there was no space for me in the world WHY must you confirm my fears? And tell me that my life doesn’t matter to you? Please please consider me and so many others like me And please do your part to protect our lives.
This piece was written thanks to a monthly theme from Illuminate, a writing community from The Kindred Voice.
Read more pieces on VULNERABILITY from other Illuminate members:
Being Vulnerable With My Body by Hannah Kewley
Quitting Cold Turkey by Mia Sutton
To The Women Working in Male-Dominated Fields by Christi Jeane
Anxiety Hangover by Christine Carpenter
Butterfly Wings by Megan McCoy Dellecese
with love, eunice by Eunice Brownlee